what if;
what if,nobody replies my message and thus causing me to reach school with blank homeworks tomorrow?
what if,i'll never get to have another new amplifier?
what if,i'm actually under a karma this year?
what if,i can't get my money managed until at least the third week of the month?
what if,brother come with no maid,with no 'herts dyslexia' album,leaving me in disappointment myself?
what if,i'll be uglier and uglier each day?
what if,parents wouldn't change their mind forever,and that dslr will slowly be gone from their things-to-buy-for-my-desperate-daughter list,thus creating a crack in a corner of my heart?
what if,i woke up with a h1n1 flu tomorrow morning,and my life is officially ruined?
what if,my benin project turned to be a piece of silent junk?
what if,there's no chance of me to get my wish lists ticked?
what if,this world is keeping the rule 'artists don't make a single fucking penny to feed themselves' forever?
what if,the sec 3-subject-picking form is given out tomorrow?
what if,by that time of moment,parents are still unenlightened and being a rock,forcing me to get into science class?
what if,i ended up as a loser,after all the pain i took and all the dares i did?
what if,things fell to the worst,and i turned out to be nothing,totally nothing?
sigh.
I
HATE
WORLD
for a fact that it's no fair,even to people who deserve one.
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it's coming to an evening,i still don't know how on earth can i get my homework done,while no one good soul is willing to help me.
Monday, July 6, 2009
Saturday, July 4, 2009
the way you make me feel
yesterday
my english cher
FINALLY
caught 5 of my piercings.
total embarrassment
and i thought that was super unimportant
exclamation mark.
yes,like finally one of them act.thou that was super lame lah.in a quiet computer lab,she shouted my name,forced me to take all of them(which i replied with stupid and unessential reasons),and stuffs.ah,well,bet that's better,rather than get a shouting from DM.still can't find my old earsticks and forgot to buy.meanwhile,i do what i can do.
and so went to plaza sing at the evening,was going to check eye,but i decided not to,wait for my parents and wear lens.
i...still can't get my poem right.and jeez,reminded back to those creepy homeworks.
see,i'm irritated again.
grrh,please lah,just close the school.
p.s.i really have to get a new amplifier,but i don't seem to be managing my allowance well.roar,it's just the beginning of month.i'm short of prepaid because i was fooled by seveneleven,i can't bear about the temptations i got to spend my money continuosly,and i don't know how on earth i can save up for a new amplifier.
p.p.s.my blog is not visited by anybody,i know.
my english cher
FINALLY
caught 5 of my piercings.
total embarrassment
and i thought that was super unimportant
exclamation mark.
yes,like finally one of them act.thou that was super lame lah.in a quiet computer lab,she shouted my name,forced me to take all of them(which i replied with stupid and unessential reasons),and stuffs.ah,well,bet that's better,rather than get a shouting from DM.still can't find my old earsticks and forgot to buy.meanwhile,i do what i can do.
and so went to plaza sing at the evening,was going to check eye,but i decided not to,wait for my parents and wear lens.
i...still can't get my poem right.and jeez,reminded back to those creepy homeworks.
see,i'm irritated again.
grrh,please lah,just close the school.
p.s.i really have to get a new amplifier,but i don't seem to be managing my allowance well.roar,it's just the beginning of month.i'm short of prepaid because i was fooled by seveneleven,i can't bear about the temptations i got to spend my money continuosly,and i don't know how on earth i can save up for a new amplifier.
p.p.s.my blog is not visited by anybody,i know.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
passed out at 3,woke up at 10,went out to eat,ten do it again.
oh,my god,i really have to update this blog before i'm stuck to those websites.
so,it's the third day.o,well,first subject was geo,and i thought cher had improved a lot on her teaching,or it's me(which is nearly impossible)!then art.hee,cher called me clever for getting on singapore early.and i got so imaginative when cher was explaining about the upcoming term plan.
recess,i shared a spoon of food with a friend.skip mother tongue.bzz.wait,oh ya,i wrote about family abuse.then science.we gotta take a temperature.i took out my therm,put it in my mouth innocently.
few seconds passed,i looked at the screen althou it had not beep yet.
36.5.
oh,it's gonna beep soon,i thought to myself.i'm used to see 36.7 in my therm screen.and btw,it shouldn't be far from my morning temperature,36.2
few seconds passed,
36.8
eh?okay.
36.9
hoam,so loong.
37.0
whoa whoa
37.1
eh,what!wait!
37.2
GOD.God,oh my God,God.
37.3
psst psst psst(start praying)
.....
.....
.....
BEEP BEEP BEEP!
PHEW!!GODD!!
really,i'm so paranoid.0.3 more and i'm qualified as h1n1 virus.
i threw myself hard right the second my thermometer beep-ed.really,i was stoning and worrying,wishing this thermometer to stop heating.
well,36.2 to 37.3,that's big.so i texted the friend frantically,and yes,she got 37.5
for God's sake,i should have follow my heart that time.i searched for qurainah,my body was really really feeble and my head is screaming,my voice stuck inside.
y'oll there,please,start caring about this case.i'm sure today Singapore has reached 800+ cases.this virus can spread over a distance,youdontknowwhere.and it can happen this second,to YOU.schools closed,some got newest,tightened rules,which make studying a major activity at school no more.we can't go anywhere crowded.i'm sick of it and the scares people drag us to.
from now on,i pledged,not to share anything else,even an eraser,without cleaning it up back,not even with my sis,my parents,best friends.
God,head's heating up....because of the sun.hahah!jacked.
kay,i got science,maths,benin project,cleaning up,washing,cooking to do.dammit.
so,it's the third day.o,well,first subject was geo,and i thought cher had improved a lot on her teaching,or it's me(which is nearly impossible)!then art.hee,cher called me clever for getting on singapore early.and i got so imaginative when cher was explaining about the upcoming term plan.
recess,i shared a spoon of food with a friend.skip mother tongue.bzz.wait,oh ya,i wrote about family abuse.then science.we gotta take a temperature.i took out my therm,put it in my mouth innocently.
few seconds passed,i looked at the screen althou it had not beep yet.
36.5.
oh,it's gonna beep soon,i thought to myself.i'm used to see 36.7 in my therm screen.and btw,it shouldn't be far from my morning temperature,36.2
few seconds passed,
36.8
eh?okay.
36.9
hoam,so loong.
37.0
whoa whoa
37.1
eh,what!wait!
37.2
GOD.God,oh my God,God.
37.3
psst psst psst(start praying)
.....
.....
.....
BEEP BEEP BEEP!
PHEW!!GODD!!
really,i'm so paranoid.0.3 more and i'm qualified as h1n1 virus.
i threw myself hard right the second my thermometer beep-ed.really,i was stoning and worrying,wishing this thermometer to stop heating.
well,36.2 to 37.3,that's big.so i texted the friend frantically,and yes,she got 37.5
for God's sake,i should have follow my heart that time.i searched for qurainah,my body was really really feeble and my head is screaming,my voice stuck inside.
y'oll there,please,start caring about this case.i'm sure today Singapore has reached 800+ cases.this virus can spread over a distance,youdontknowwhere.and it can happen this second,to YOU.schools closed,some got newest,tightened rules,which make studying a major activity at school no more.we can't go anywhere crowded.i'm sick of it and the scares people drag us to.
from now on,i pledged,not to share anything else,even an eraser,without cleaning it up back,not even with my sis,my parents,best friends.
God,head's heating up....because of the sun.hahah!jacked.
kay,i got science,maths,benin project,cleaning up,washing,cooking to do.dammit.
Monday, June 29, 2009
the super insurgent group of intemperance talent
breakdown.why?because people don't understand,people don't own hearts,people are short-minded,people love the satisfaction of dropping one and flying themselves,people have no mirror,people think saying,"i don't care" is oh-super-cool,people are humans,and you know 'what' are humans.
oh,bullshites.no matter how you try to be me,there's no way you're gonna be better than me.yes?
oh,bullshites.no matter how you try to be me,there's no way you're gonna be better than me.yes?
Sunday, June 28, 2009
a bitter end
my fav leather jacket is torn,i got fooled,and stuffs,man,you do this right before school start.bluddie.
o,well.school is so round to the corner.
well,kay.yesterday i went to orchard .got fooled in seveneleven and novena church!haha.
kay,so i thought there was a saturday aft massin novena church,and we saw many people were assembling there,we followed and was surprised it's over only after 15 minutes.it's actually just a prayer,haha.then,i accidentally bought an 18 dollars prepaid instead of 28,and that 18 got nothing good compared to 28.agh.
went to ayam penyet ria(for the first time!hah),and was so reminded back of hua.2 years huh.well,i'll be celebrating 2 years anniversary on 6th later.
guess i have missed so much things from sch.y'know,school feelings.
i need to buy few other albums in indo,some cosmetics,some guitar amplifier,some things,some holidays.gosh.
ahh,don't mind me.will be going church later.and awh,dad's bday is today.
y'know my mind is just too big to be written down,i can make a book.
ah,need to go to toilet.
p.s.i havent finish art hw.and don't know where the hell chers put assignments in sch web portal.
p.p.s.i should have lie to mrs.Loh so that i can get a quarantine too.
o,well.school is so round to the corner.
well,kay.yesterday i went to orchard .got fooled in seveneleven and novena church!haha.
kay,so i thought there was a saturday aft massin novena church,and we saw many people were assembling there,we followed and was surprised it's over only after 15 minutes.it's actually just a prayer,haha.then,i accidentally bought an 18 dollars prepaid instead of 28,and that 18 got nothing good compared to 28.agh.
went to ayam penyet ria(for the first time!hah),and was so reminded back of hua.2 years huh.well,i'll be celebrating 2 years anniversary on 6th later.
guess i have missed so much things from sch.y'know,school feelings.
i need to buy few other albums in indo,some cosmetics,some guitar amplifier,some things,some holidays.gosh.
ahh,don't mind me.will be going church later.and awh,dad's bday is today.
y'know my mind is just too big to be written down,i can make a book.
ah,need to go to toilet.
p.s.i havent finish art hw.and don't know where the hell chers put assignments in sch web portal.
p.p.s.i should have lie to mrs.Loh so that i can get a quarantine too.
Friday, June 26, 2009
cring!
i had been wasting time unsufficiently.i didn't even know that it's friday already.
been playing computer,then read few pages of my maryamah karpov,then make a lunch and computer again to watch 2 episodes of OVJ.
agh,off to do my maths.and i don't know where the hell is my science and geography homework.man,freeze the time.
p.s.michael jackson died yesterday.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
ehhhhhhh,sialan.
sialan,banci,apa deh,pokoknya nasib gue bego banget.konser terkeren sepanjang hidup gue,terjadi pas di hari gue pergi dari indo.sapi banget._(silakan isi sendiri kata terjijay anda)___
nangis dulu ahh.
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